Jul 13 2007

StoryWar

Hey there, just thought I’d share some good news with ya’ll. Recently I signed up to a creative writing website called StoryWar where people post their stories and rate each others. Having posted a few up there and then forgotten about it I got a very pleasant surprise today when I checked in and found my short story ‘Season’s End’ has been voted number 2 out of around 400. Needless to say I’m pretty much bursting with joy right about now, it’s always great when people like something you’ve written.

So, if you fancy checking it out, simply go here, read, enjoy, and perhaps let me know what you think with a rating or comment.


Jun 25 2007

Season’s End

I know that I’ve been a little lax on the creative writing, and that this story has taken me a lot longer than I first thought it would to get to the end of it’s first draft. That said, I’m almost slightly content with it. This one’s for Rachel.

As usual feel free to leave comments, slander etc etc. You know the drill.

 

Season’s End

I woke to sunlight shining through thin tartan curtains. I was twelve, and the sunlight had that special summer holiday quality about it that promised a cloud free day. There’s something magical about holiday sunshine; something that can fill a day full of excitement; turning sticks into swords, trees into towers, and small boys into knights and wizards.  As sleep drifted away I gradually became aware of a deep hum and incessant tapping, coming from behind the curtain. Carefully I pulled the fold of the curtain open, revealing a fat bumblebee throwing itself furiously against the glass. If it had been a wasp I would have killed it, crushing it against the window with the heel of a shoe. The summer before I had been stung by one, the memory of the throbbing red lump it had raised on my arm was still fresh. But I liked bumblebees, liked the fat laziness of their flight, and the hairy yellow and black stripes of their bellies. I lifted the latch and opened the window. I watched the bee buzz away, flying out over the waving green treetops.

After a rushed breakfast of thickly buttered warm toast that I barely stood still to eat, I ran out the backdoor into the garden. I should explain now that our house was surrounded by a large wood, and that the fence that had divided our small garden from the ancient trees of the wood had long since fallen to rust among ivy and briars. To me the wood was as much a part of my home as the house itself. I had spent many blissful days roaming through that wood, following narrow almost imaginary paths, scaling trees that could transform into mountains or towers. I imagined treasure and booty, gold and swords and armour, at the top of those towers. At that age I had no interest in damsels, distressed or otherwise. Today, I decided, I was a knight, tall, strong and noble. I would track and hunt the trolls, fairies, and goblins that lurked in the shadowed wood. I would know them by the whistling of the wind that was their cries, tracks left in the leaves, and the hollow trees that were their lairs. I was a wizard too, with nonsense magic words that banished the ghosts that I knew with childhood certainty haunted the dappled spaces under the trees. I took my favourite stick from where it was propped against the crumbling shed and walked through the neat garden, its carefully tamed flowerbeds and striped lawn full of the scent of the yellow and white honeysuckle blossoms that climbed the kitchen wall. As I left the lawn and entered into the shade of the tall trees talking in the wind my stick grew into a sword and I swiped the heads off nettles and brambles as I followed the path deeper into the woods.
After a while spent walking along cool paths deep into the wood, bent almost double searching for the heavy claw prints of trolls and the smaller footprints of goblins, I wandered into a glade I didn’t recognise. In the middle of the clearing was the rotten stump of a long dead tree, with a scatter of freshly dug earth around it. At the base of the stump was a large hole, its entrance marked with the light brown of freshly turned leaf mould. I knelt down, bending my head low to peer into the darkness of the hole. I couldn’t see far. I prodded and brushed the turned earth with my sword, wondering if it had been dug by a badger or a fox, it was too big for a rabbit, that I knew. As I swiped at the earth, I noticed something white amidst the dark dead leaves and brown of the earth. I dropped my stick and carefully brushed the earth away with a gentle hand. Lying there uncovered in the shifting dappled sunlight lay a small white shape, a bone. Rabbit’s bone, I said out loud to myself. I brushed and dug more, feeling earth pushed beneath my fingernails. More white, more bone showed, cool against my fingers. Excited I dug faster, brushing earth and leaf aside with quick scoops. After a minute I sat back on my haunches, hot from efforts, appreciating the cool woodland air on my clammy brow. The white scattering I had uncovered was no rabbit skeleton, but the slender, off-white bones of a hand. A human hand. I recognised the delicate nubs of finger bones from the hanging skeleton in Mr. Whitmore’s science room at school. I stood up, unable to look away, electrified, young body filled with energy that demanded release. Strange words came to me from cheap horror comics. I was a grave robber, a desecrator of bodies. I knew I should bury it again, that it was the right thing to do. Instead I ran. I ran back through the woods, ignoring the brambles whipping at my legs until panting and gasping I reached the ordered safety of the garden. There I collapsed on the back steps, drawing deep breaths sweet with the scent of honeysuckle down my aching throat.

It took half an hour to pluck up the courage to go back. Walking back through the wood, I started at every noise, every squeak of branches rubbing together in the breeze, every stick falling noisily into the leaves. It was no longer the same place I had entered that morning. That morning I had been hunting creatures that I had never found, that were real in that self conscious, childish half-imagined way; monsters that I could banish with a thought. Now I knew, really knew, that there was a dead body in my woods. And somewhere was the thing that had killed it. As I walked I tried to decide if it had been bandits, or robbers, or a maniac, or a wild man, that had murdered someone and buried the body. Caught up in my thoughts, I didn’t even realise that I was nearing the glade again. What finally made me look up from the path beneath my feet was a noise, faint at first, a deep humming barely audible that got louder as I walked on. As I entered the clearing I stopped dead, not understand what I saw. On the ground near the stump, where I had found the finger bones, was a deep carpet of yellow and black, shifting and writhing. The humming was stronger now, a deep vibration that I could actually feel in my stomach and chest. Filling the air were streams of bees, fat, hairy, bumble bees, each as big as the top of my thumb. They wound and wove, coming from the trunks around the glade, through the treetops, coming to settle on the growing mass obscuring on the ground. At first I gawked in amazement, just watching the lines of bees drunkenly flying around the clearing before dropping into the buzzing mound next to the stump. As the shock wore off I realised that they were swarming over where the body was buried, digging with thousands of needle-like legs into the soft leaf mulch to reach what was below. I suddenly couldn’t stop myself thinking of rotting flesh, sweet with decay. The bees were there to feed. Thousands of tiny mouths eager to lick with minute tongues, to ingest, to carry away a portion of someone’s body on thrumming wings. A wave of acrid bile flooded up my throat and I knew that if I stayed I would be violently sick. With a hand to my mouth I once again left the clearing, my roiling belly reducing me to a hobbling run.

At dinner I could hardly eat, pushing my food around my plate until my mother told me to stop. All I could think about was the heaving mass of bees in the glade, I imagined I could taste the sweet nectar of decay on my tongue. Concerned that her normally voracious child had no appetite she asked me if I was feeling ill. I muttered something vague and didn’t meet her eyes, she had that maternal talent for always being able to tell when I was lying. After a few seconds she went back to watching one of her soaps on TV and paid me no more attention.

The last of the sunshine shone down in sparse golden rays through the trees, intermittently piercing the glooming gloom as I finally made my way back to the glade. It was nearly dusk and darkness was beginning to seep into the space between the trunks, to swallow up the undergrowth in pools of darkness. A gentle evening breeze rustled the leaves in the treetops above. I was tense with fear, walking softly but jumping at every snapped twig. The growing shadows could hide anything, whatever had killed and buried the body could be creeping up on me and I’d wouldn’t know until it was too late. Despite the fear I kept going, forcing myself to place one foot in front of another. I somehow knew that if I didn’t go to the glade now, then tomorrow it would rain, and the day’s magic would be washed away, there would be nothing left in the clearing but damp leaves and disturbed earth, and I would be left always wondering what had happened. As I walked the darkness gathered in closer, tightening around me, the dying light penetrating through the treetops less often. As I walked, the humming of hundreds of buzzing wings came to me softly through the wood. I followed it as if it were a path through the trees, leading me onwards to an unknown end. When I eventually reached the edge of the clearing I hung back, unsure of what I would see. After a moment I found my courage and stepped forward into the clearing. The humming was faint now, soft and fading as the last bumblebees flew in lazy streams back into the trees, each following a path known only to it. Next to the tree stump there was no longer a carpet of yellow and black bodies tumbling over each other, no longer the slithers of bone I had unearthed. All that remained was a hollow of freshly dug earth longer than I was tall and about two foot deep where the body had lain, the shallow ditch of an empty woodland grave. Of the body itself, there was no sign. As I watched, the last of the bees circled once more around the glade and slowly flew away into the trees, a tiny fuzzy shape as much heard as seen. I turned to follow it’s flight, and as I did so caught a glimpse of a pale figure flitting between the shadows of the trees. For just a second I saw a slender young woman with golden yellow hair and milky white skin that seemed to glow in the growing gloom as she danced between the pools of shadows and the tree trunks. I saw her for just one second, and then she was gone, gone into the wood. All that was left was the sweet scent of honeysuckle blowing through the wood on the gentle evening breeze.

I remember that the day after that it did indeed rain. A few days after that I was sent back to school, and in the years after that I grew up, and the sunlit summer holiday days no longer seemed magical to me. All this happened to me almost a life time ago, and as I sit here in my favourite chair writing it down I am an old man; an old, sick, man. The years are not kind, they rub away at you, seeking to smooth you down to nothing. I know that I will never see another summer after this. As I sit here I look out the window and see the soft evening of a dying summer’s day, the breeze brushing leaves touched by the sinking sun. In a minute I will put down my pen, stand up, and go out into the wood. I will go to a clearing, to lie down in a shallow hollow also softened by the years, and there I will watch the light fade from the sky, and wait for the scent of honeysuckle.


Feb 22 2007

And again.

Bet you’d thought I’d forgotten about you didn’t you?  Well, you don’t get off that easy.  Here’s a little something I rushed off today that I’ll be sending to my creative writing workshop on Monday.  As usual, comments and so forth are welcome with open arms but hardly expected.  Enjoy.  Or don’t.  It’s democracy, you decide.

 

Twelve o’clock

It had been twelve on a Monday when the first text message from an unknown number arrived.

Difficult endings,
Push spring shoots softening kiss,
Dead leaves will not hate.

Dan Stevens looked down at his phone vibrating on the desk.  He picked it up and read the text.  He looked up and then around the office.  He read the text again.  He couldn’t understand it.  What the hell?  Was it meant to be a riddle or a joke or something?  Maybe it was one of the pranks he and the other young men often played on each other to liven up the long boring air conditioned hours sat in front of a computer screen and answering the phone to irate customers.  If it was a prank it wasn’t a very good one.  Not a patch on last week when he slipped two constipation relief pills into Samuels’ coffee before his promotion meeting with the boss.  Now that had been funny.  Samuels had worked out who had done it though, and had confronted him, his face livid with accusation.  Dan had just laughed at him and Samuels had eventually walked away, shoulders hunched in defeat.  Dan didn’t care, Samuels was a prick anyway.  He was asking for it.  His prank had been funny.   This, well, this was just plain odd.  He sat up in his seat, peeking above his cubical wall, and scanned the office again.  No one seemed to be looking over at him.  He sat back down and with a shrug, pressed delete.

Summer sat on the sofa, curled up with her knees hugged tightly to her chest.  Her face was puffy and her eyes felt raw from crying.  On the coffee table, next to a large mug of hot chocolate gone cold, her mobile played the first few bars of Beethoven’s Fifth in crude notes.  She hated the annoying message tone but never seemed to get around to changing it.  It was probably Simon.  Despite having broken up with her last night, he was probably texting to see if she was alright, and to ask if they could still be friends.  The predictable bastard.  She’d known that something was wrong as soon as he’d called to say he had booked a table at Carlucio’s.  It was just like him to take her somewhere nicer to break up with her than he’d ever done while they were together.  It had been horrible.  He’d smiled wanly at her over the shared starter of scallops with fresh garlic mayonnaise. He’d told her it wasn’t working out, as the waiter glided over with the main course.  She’d had the grilled chicken breast and purple asparagus with mango sauce drizzled on the side.  He’d had an exotic mushroom tangalatelli with basil and wild pine nut pesto.  She’d wanted to scream at him, lean across the table and slap him as hard as she could in front of the restaurant full of well dressed diners.  But, of course, she hadn’t.  Instead she’d forced down a large gulp of wine from a glass shaking with the trembling of her hands.  After that she had sat and listened to his disgustingly rational excuses and reasoning.  Didn’t she think this was for the best?  Could she see a future for them when they couldn’t afford a decent place together from which they could both commute to work?  Feeling trapped in the rigid confines of politeness she’d eaten quickly, the food dry and tasteless in her mouth, trying not to hear all his reasons why it would be better to break up, why he was doing her a favour.  Outwardly she appeared calm, if a little pale around the cheeks, yet on the inside she was screaming and bodily throwing herself against her inner walls.  She knew that he’d only brought her here in the hope that she wouldn’t make a scene somewhere so public.  She hated him for being right.  They’d split the bill.

Dah dah dah, duh.  Duh duh duh, doh.

The mobile vibrated around on the tabletop, dancing to its own music.  She pulled a tissue from the sleeve of her jumper and blew her nose with feeling.  She’d known all along that Simon hadn’t been right for her anyway, but after a long period of being alone she’d needed someone.  And Simon was just there, so it had been him.  He’d seemed like a decent bloke to begin with.  Well, she thought, she was better off without him, he‘d been right about that at least.
‘Fuck him,’ she said out loud to the empty room.
Picking up the mobile she decided that whatever banal rubbish he’d spouted, she’d equal it; she wouldn’t let him know that he’d gotten to her.  She pressed a button and read the text.  Then she read it again.

Dan lay on top of her, muscles tensed, panting with the exertion of his efforts.  Beneath him on the bed Jen made sympathetic noises in the back of her throat, while occasionally sneaking a look at the clock on the bedside table when he was distracted.  Almost twelve.  She had to be at work in half an hour.  She thought it over.  Five minutes for a shower, another five to get dressed.  A fifteen minute taxi ride across the City if she was lucky.  He’d better hurry up.  She wasn’t going to let herself be late again.  She moaned a little more emphatically in her ear.  He duly sped up in response.  On the bedside table his mobile started vibrating and flashing, sporadically lighting the darkened room with its insistent blue light.  Dan turned his head towards the buzzing little machine.  He started to slow.
‘No, please, don’t stop,’ pleaded Jen.
Misunderstanding, he turned back to the task at hand, trying to forget about the mobile.  But the buzzing continued, drilling into his head, intruding and totally ruining the moment.  With a curse he pushed himself off the bed, grabbed the mobile from the table and strode naked into the hall, slamming the door loudly behind him.  Not knowing what else to do, Jen got up, glanced at the clock, and went for a brief shower.

Over the next week Dan and Summer both received a text at twelve each day.  For Dan it was something he came to dread.  Certain that it was a joke at his expense that he didn’t understand, he became more hostile than usual to his co-workers, searching for some hint of conspiracy in their chatter, snapping at customers over the phone.  By Wednesday his boss felt the need to have a ‘quiet word’ with him about the virtues of team work and accepted methods of communicating with customers.  Dan had to try hard to not start laughing at him.  As if that all mattered when there was someone secretly stalking him.  After that he started responding to each text with an increasingly abusive reply.  He used the word fuck a lot, in the way that only a very angry and inarticulate man can.  He cast aspersions on the unknown sender’s sexuality, calling him a faggot, a poof, and all the other dirty words he could think of.  He suggested that their mother’s sexual preferences hadn’t been confined to those of her own species exclusively.  When he met Jen again on Friday for their regular session, he found he couldn’t perform knowing that even with the phone off he would be receiving another perplexing and inexplicable message.  He called her a frigid whore, questioned her sexuality too.  He knew he wasn’t making any sense but couldn’t contain the confused rage within him.  He left her uncomprehending and naked on the bed, arms folded in an attempt to preserve some modesty.

Unlike Dan, Summer woke up each morning looking forward to midday.  Stirred by vague memories from her time studying literature at university she’d dug out some old books she’d never got around to throwing out.  When she realised that each text was a haiku, a poem in miniature, she started trying to decipher the message each day.  Sat in her flat she spent idle hours pondering what the unknown poet was trying to tell her.  After a couple of days she hardly thought of Simon, and if she did it was only as some dark cloud from whose shadow she’d managed to escape.  When she went for coffee with friends they talked over steaming mugs about whether it was some secret admirer sending obscure messages of affection.  She was inclined to think so, there seemed a certain eloquence in the texts, something she could not put her finger on, that made them seem positive and life affirming.  Still, for all this, she couldn’t bring herself to reply to them.  What could she say to someone so obviously talented, someone who treated words as living and beautiful things.  Nothing she could think seemed a fitting echo to the daily message of hope that she gladly received.

When the expected text did not come on Saturday it shocked them both in different ways. 

Dan continued feeling haunted by those messages, even more so now that whoever was overshadowing his life was doing so in even more absolute anonymity and secrecy.  At least, before he had known how the unseen presence was reaching out to touch his life, now he was left unprepared, not knowing how the cryptic spectre would next affect his life.  He, of course, wouldn’t have expressed it in such a way, but his actions infer such a description.  He became increasingly hostile at work, paranoid, confrontational and withdrawn.  His boss told Dan he was going to have to reassess whether or not a career with the company was what was really in all their best interests.  Jen wouldn’t answer his calls, and in some way he was relieved, having unmanned himself with her so totally.

Summer, on the other hand, missed the daily text, her personal message of affection from that unknown hand.  While she continued to feel the absence, she did not mourn it however.  The texts had brought her through the break up and left her feeling exalted and cared for.  That she would never know her secret poet only heightened the feeling that the poems were a sign of the general warmth of the world towards those within it.  She felt certain that one day her admirer would reveal himself to her somehow, but until that day she would face the world with open arms and a smile.

On the following Monday certain newspapers announced the death of a noted poet.  On Saturday, they reported, his publishers, an esteemed firm based in Soho, had received a suicide letter signed by the poet.  It explained that, following a long disillusionment with the future of poetry in an increasingly depersonalised and virtual age, the poet had embarked on one final project.  The details of the project were unknown but apparently involved reaching out to a readership via a virtual medium.  The letter stated it to have been an utter failure.  While a relationship was established with one reader, the poet reported it to be an unfruitful one at best.  The other reader contacted had failed to respond to the poetry sent them all together, and this, the letter noted, was by far the greater failure of the two; a failure that marked the end of the project and the poet’s life.  The publisher had since tried to contact the eminent poet, but had not been successful.  The newspaper stated that one fairly reliable eye witness had reported seeing a well dressed man in a suit and trilby hat matching the poet’s description on the Sunday.  The newspaper stated that the man was reported to have last been seen walking into the sea on a cove near Beachy Head.